Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Brother was asking me why dont i try for to look for some admin part time job when i told him i wanna do waitressing or be a barista that sorta thing for a part time job.

So i was telling him, "why must i work FOR money and be a lackey for moo-lahs(money)?. Right at this age, i just wanna enjoy working and money would be secondary la..."

Gorgor :" okay, good :) at least you're working.
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i aspire to earn a million by 30!(or maybe 35 haha.)
bt not starting frm now la.
let me enjoy my teenage years first.

Im not gonna slog for money now, and when im out in the working society , slog again for the rest of my life!

nono...
Amanda dont like it.

a moderately low paid job, bt fun loving job would be fine with me.
low pay then low pay la .
Although the salary's low, bt i believe working happily for 10 hours with $4/hr would be better than working 8 hours with $10/hr without any fun ,without any friends and with alot of stress.

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And why should i be like the grown ups?
why should i act like the grown ups and act like im their age .
i treat every single one like someone my age should treat them. A meimei to a gorgor/jiejie, just like how i treat my brother , or if i had an elder sister.(oh, do you know i used to have an elder sister? surprising huh. she experienced the world earlier than my brother did. so if she did managed to live, i dont think i would be here. i dont think my parents would have wanted 3 kids.hoho. havoc at home.)


If i didnt treat you as my jiejies/gorgors, i wouldnt have been goofy, and so openminded (okay. im goofy with friends too. bt NOT THAT goofy when with you guys). yea, my interection with my gorgor different frm interections with friends.
just that tinch of difference.

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Anw, i think its inevitable that people's mood , character , sense of humour and everything changes with the surrounding.

you'll inevitably be happier (and thus smile more) with a higher paid job,
you'll inevitably be more patient when you're working in a childcare center,
you'll inevitably be more "ang moh " if you're hanging out with a more "ang moh " group,(ahem, yesyes, with respect to my secondary school days.*u know, all the manicure and pedicure, the stayovers and all that*)
you'll inevitably be more " cheena " when you're hanging out with a more "cheena"( in a good sense; more chinese) clique.(ahem yes~. with respect to my one year in poly. totally changed me - make my english worse haha)

the evidence is so significant! we grow up along with what makes us that way.We grow to be like our surrounding.

Take my two aunties for example:-
Auntie Cheryl - more ang moh, because she was under English education and was in english-majored school.

Auntie Grace - half cheena half ang moh , because she was under chinese education at primary school bt then went overseas for studies so english was also good.


Yesyes. i was like agreeing profusely ! She told me about what i wrote above. " from ang moh sch so more ang moh" " from cheena sch so more cheena" about her and Auntie Cheryl.

I SO AGREE!

So sometimes you see me slang, must be see me hanging out with sherri too much.
haha! =D

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summing up, my reason for today's post is for clarification's sake.
i dont like misconceptions abt me.
especially when people say i should try to be myself (okay, onli 1 person told me that =x )
BUT, 1 misconception is enough for me.


I believe in being myself all along, so i dont understand why that person sees that im nt being myself.
Do i have to explain everything t everyone? tiring you know.

Im such a fan of " staying true to yourself" ! and you say im not being myself ? trying to be someone else? i BOX YOU AH.
stop labelling me with what you think.

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okay. the above post is just random.
i started talking abt my part time job then i continued typing down what i was thinking , then it linked to how that person said im trying not to be myself, then it led to clarification.
i dont even know how everything ended here!
lol.anyways,i hope the above rantings didnt bore you out. Cause i was just writing what i was feeling right at that instant.


okay, im really hot. cos the fan's not on.
GOODBYE! :D
Ja-neh!

I love you.